目前正处于非常危险的地带。

是心灵上受到的折磨。

不知该如何解释。

更不想到达无法自拔的地步。

我真的不想看到你。不想越陷越深。

心中有好多的不想。

但心底依然牵挂着。

I wish to put all these to an end.

Which nobody can help mi with.

我的招财吉蒂猫。

I noe theres no link between my problem and this fortune kitty.

But who the f*** cares?

wooooo my lovely colleagues... hehe

wooooo handsome handsome???

wooooo pretty pretty???

mi @ Silk on day 1

candid-ed.

actually theres somemore photos. but chou-ed. hehe blah blah blah...

或许我们不能拥有完美的结局，但至少拥有彼此完美的回忆。

Bintan-ed

View from the resort.

Entrance to the beach.

This place sucks.

2nd night @ Silk.

hehehe my 1st time to go on a trip wif my co.!!! to BINTAN LAGOON RESORT... hehehe... realli veri fun.. hiakhiak...

had some team building games in day 1 after we arrive.. someone from my team cheated -.-... but no doubt he's successfully created a very good atmosphere for everyone.. and we won the most points.. woots! after dinner went to "Silk", the pub/club or watever u call dat... my 2nd time chiong-ing... only had a margarita.. not frozen though.. and i wasnt high enough to dance... so erm was quite anti-climax-ing... hehe but e crowd was happening... a guy's hairstyle was dated quite some time back, can u imagine someone trying to look ah beng but still in centre-parting hairstyle? COOLzz.. and he's wearing a shirt which looks like those ah pek going to macau for gambling -.-

day 2 was free n easy for us. zie n charmaine woke up so late n i had to have breakfast wif zhi zhong (he was supposed to be sam) but we called one another's "original" names throughout this trip.. hiakhiak... took some photos until both of them arrive... they dun wanna go pasar ole ole... so we went with the others... good move by both of them as the place sucks. refer to above photo. dat place is like souvenoir shop times 10 of them? so sian n the stuff r not cheap. the onli things we bought there are mineral water... 50cents only.. hiakhiak..

after dat went swimming @ the pool wif nick n zz.. wat a big flirt i am.. but the other girls r having a mahjong session lehz... the sun is too nice for mi to miss it.. hehe.. esp wif the 2 handsome chaps.. see photo above @ silk.. hiak hiak u'll understand... wooooooo bitches go beach after lunch... photos not uploaded yet.. but soon... hehe nice bitch @ nice beach...

went to Silk again on 2nd night. more ppl. more fun.. had chivas+ginger ale.. cant remb its name.. but its nice!!! got high soon after 1 cup n dance-ed... dancing queen? nah.. im a beginner... was "asked" to tequila n i juz accepted... since im not a virgin drinker of it.. hiak hiak... tequila-ed... think most of them were shocked by mi. duno y.. maybe they din expect my 酒量 is good? hiak hiak...

day 3... erm not much lahz... was jie lun-ing wif zz in e morning... and the ferry ride back to sg sucks. choppy sea. din vomit. dats good news...

btw, i brought SG$200 to bintan. n i din spend a single cent. damn.

Dats all for now. actually i already have the pics from my colleagues' cam... Upload again when i remb to bring my ext hard disk back. ROAR!

暗恋

只有暗恋你的勇气，

却没这权力。

只有离开这里，

才能把你忘记。

请别让我爱上你。

内疚

这是今早搭502A上班时发生的。

有为小男孩就坐在我面前，大概小学五/六年级，穿着简单，应该是去找朋友玩。学校假期，不可能去补习。

当巴士从Boon Lay Ave 转左，驶入 Corporation Road，准备上高速公路(PIE)时，我从这位小弟的脸上看到了他那惊讶/错愕/不知所措的表情。

从我脑海里第一时间闪过的念头：小弟搭错巴士。直觉告诉我，小弟要去Jurong West, 但他上了一辆有"A"的502，是直接从Corporation Road 上PIE，在Steven’s Road出口，直奔Orchard Road。我心里很想问小弟他到底要去哪里，但害怕自己会把小弟吓着，所以就没问了。也尝试说服自己可能想太多了。

但当巴士差不多经过Bukit Batok 时，小弟慌了。他赶紧按铃。但巴士不能停。他便走向前方的巴士车长。我不知道小弟问了什么，也不知道车长怎么回答。只看得出车长can’t be bothered。我好想好想走上前告诉小弟怎么回家。因为我知道，若我是他，我早就哭了！但不知为什么就没这么做。

小弟站在前方直到巴士停在Orchard Tower前的车站。他赶紧下车，看了看车站的车牌。还露出了担忧及害怕的眼神。

当时巴士已经开走了。我不敢回头看他如何。恐怕自己会忍不住掉泪。

虽然我已痛骂自己没用，但我的后悔与内疚会一直留在心中。

若能时光倒流，我只想走向前告诉小弟：“不要害怕，姐姐教你回家。”