i tink i accidentally cheated ur feelings. haha. as in i said i will post a entry after i got back my drill cane from joh. haha. sorry. i really deleted it. hmm not difficult to recall but i promise its gonna be a 1000 word essay. haha now i feel like shy. ok act =x coz the feeling like so many ppl looking. if i had posted tis on dat emo day i wont get tis lor. argh! actually not much to say so dun be disappointed k. n the emotions wouldnt be as strong as the 1st draft i had...

ok i started off tinking of 1 fine day in ard sep 02, it was announced dat the application to 63rd cibtc was opened. then 7 idiots took the form n happily went to west point hospital for medical checkup. the 7 were heng, des, cyn, sr, kw, mi n samson. till date i duno y the hell samson ever tot of going for tis, he wasn’t dat into np wad... hehe… so only 4 of us were accepted. heng, des, sr n mi. bye kw, bye cyn, bye sam.

i remb it wasn’t easy for mi to be a ci. coz my parents were still very strict dat time. all my consent forms were signed by my dad. i mean ALL ok. ALL except the onefor the cibtc. i beg my mama to sign for mi. i have to promise n show dat i study hard for my o levels. i have to promise i will put studies first n study hard in whichever jc/poly i will go to. i have to promise i dun spend so much time polishing my boots.

then off we go to the course in dec 02. im so noob. i duno a single shit about tis course. omg. haha my 1st friend is theresa. she talked to mi. coz i wont approach ppl. die oso muz let the other party open mouth 1st. ok the course was fun n tiring. not the physical torture but the mental. it sucks. lucky theres the other 3. if i were to go alone, i would have quitted on the 1st or 2nd day. dun forget im still a kitten then. its great to noe so many friends. i still contact my batchmates, ppl like heng, des n sr. hahahahahha pls laugh, it’s a joke.

sr is damn cute n she is the 1 im stuck to for the rest of my ci-ship. 1. she forgotten her name tag on 1st day of the course. 2. 1 morning on our way to PA in train, she took out her still seasoning round hat wif diff colour, diff shape, diff size, diff designs de CLOTHES PEG. 3. she left her shoe bag in my dad’s car on 1 morning when he fetch us there.

jss loves boys. so sr n i were exported to jwss. both of us were culture shock-ed on our 1st day to report. i dun wan to tarnish the reputation of tis sch. so i better keep my mouth shut on the sch rules. n when im reminded of jwssnpcc, i have really good memories but it juz ended in utter disappointment. i promised not to say anything bout any incident which happened as i respected the other parties, like how they respect our decision.

the 1st 4 yrs was fun.. enjoying the unity spirit of all instrs. learning from one another. playing wif cadets. nth happened in the 5th yr but i start to get sick of np. i realise dat im not willing to sacrifice my sat morning slp for np.. i start to give excuses for being unable to come. the reason i stayed on is bcoz of friends.. sr, cyn, joh n dar. they r my only source of motivation. coz i dun wan to miss out any fun. hehe. then the 6th n the last yr has the most fun. coz we're closer to the others in area 17.. n problems arise.. but u noe wat? these problems make us more united. hehe… so y do i have to leave when theres fun? its not a tough decision for mi. i do not have great plans for the future yet, but i juz wan to spend more time wif ty. n i muz have more time for studies. the economy now is a live case study to support the field im looking at… haha. whatever the reason i juz need to make tis point clear dat i handed in my resignation to mrs tan before she officially left the sch, n not dismissed like wat u hear.

i still wan to say, im sorry to yaoshen, im sorry to arafah, im sorry to wei wei, im sorry to xiao xin, im sorry to diniy, im sorry to harizan, im sorry to the entire batch of sec 4 2004, im sorry to the entire batch of sec 2 2006, that i did not fulfil my duty to push for the rights u shld enjoy but following orders blindly. now i look back into yaoshen’s entry as he mentioned n described us as “demons”… i felt insulted n hurt the 1st time i saw it. now i feel he’s right. for how we treated him, i cant blame him for hating us into the bone.

not forgetting to thank sr for accepting tis lousy partner, thank cyn for coming to jw juz for the fun of it, thank chuanie for coming for parades despite having to abide to house rules, thank ww for the wet shoes (I HAVEN RETURN U AFTER 2 CNYS), thank joh for being a good mentee, thank dar for being good in recreation. hahahhahahah pls laugh again. good. i tink dar’s expertise n professionalism in recreation will be the joke in the rest of our lives. n oso thank heng, des, kw, zh, crabby, wk, dear partner WCH, brendon, leonard, meiyu, jolene n jesline. need to thank all of u again for making my 6 yrs of CIship worth remembering. u r the ppl i wan to treasure. ppl who r true.

im not sure how much tis sorry or thank u mean to u. its juz wat i wan to say from the bottom of my heart. coz only i the kitty noe dat u guys r worth more than dat. i noe but im not willing to repay tis debt by going for atc 09. npcc is out of my life. dun worry not u guys :)

OK then wat makes mi so emo? 1 sentence. i put in 6 yrs of effort into jwssnpcc in exchange for tis unjustified ending.

u can listen to the other parties who say “jt asked for tis ending”, “she bullshitted”, n explain a whole of load of shit. if u can put urself in their shoes, y cant u put urself in mine? juz bcoz im a cat i dun wear shoes doesn’t mean i dun have feelings!!!

kittyger deeply regrets if u feel dat tis piece of shit above has caused any inconvenience to u. u r not allowed to copy my shit as i can charge u for plagiarism. but u r pleased to twist n turn my words to make mi look like the asshole instead of victim, if u r capable of doing so.