Life is juz so full of disappointment.

Im a person who doesn’t open my heart easily to ppl, whether i noe them for days, for months or for years. or at least i thought im this kind of person. coz i noe its not a matter of how long i noe them, but how much or how deep i noe about them.

And when i do finally open my heart, i really hope dat i receive the same treatment from the other party. selfish n innocent thinking. i cant convince myself to give unconditionally n expect nothing in return.

You reach out to mi like a friend. u tried ur best not to treat mi like ur subordinate although i have always look upon u as a manager. 2 years later when things start to change, i start to feel dat hey, maybe i shld try to treat u like a friend, ur not a bad person.

I trusted u. But when the whole world misunderstands mi, not giving mi a chance to explain, i seek for ur help again. what did u do man? not only did u not help, u turn ur back to mi, stab mi further, sit 1 corner see show and u can still blame mi for dragging u into this. i wish i could use curse n swear words at u.

i will still do wat u asked mi to, still respect u as a manager, BUT u dun set up another counseling session n talk to mi n ask mi why am i so cold towards u. i worked wif u for 3 years n i cant stand u giving mi a doubtful thought in my capability.

Maybe i can only learn a lesson when i get hurt.

Come to think of it, if this kind of ppl dun appear in my life, I wont noe who my friends are. Maybe i will oso treat my friends like shit if these losers dun come n teach mi a lesson of appreciating friends.




On a separate note… i felt much happier after thinking of some stupid stuffs after i get scolded. i was thinking to myself, if i were to organize a game for my co., wat would it be? wanna make a guess to wat kittyger is thinking??? hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak. i will organize HANTUM BOLA n the 1st person i wanna whack is the chao turban. i hope u guessed correctly. i forgotton bout the rules of this game then i happily googled it and realized 15mins later after i closed the browser feeling so satisfied of my findings dat the chao turban is sitting behind mi doing his work… hahahahahaha okok im self-entertaining. a special skill which i have mastered after being banned from msn. ban msn = ban ty = ban cyn = life sucks.