break

i just came back from my mid term holiday.

it was a fruitful trip home. i met up with family, close friends and colleagues. i missed their laughter, never ending bursts of energy. that wonderful feeling of home.

while im struggling with the effects of jet lag, im also struggling to rethink about my career objectives and whether or not this is worth my effort.

i dont hate my job. i was exposed to many challenges. i've been doing things i never knew i could. nobody can take such experiences from me. neither do the skills i learned from such experiences. i wouldnt exchange anything for this.

but...the culture here is kind of unfavourable to people like me. i cant say the culture is bad just coz its bad to me. the culture must be good for some other people. ever since i came here, i got the feeling that im working to please certain people rather than focused on doing proper work. certain people who prefers to be pleased and have their balls rubbed rather than seeing actual results of the work done. i dont understand.

but i'll continue to keep an open mind for the next half of this term.